contact.

i miss human contact. the feeling of someones hands running around your waist, snaking up your spine really drawing you in. skin on skin the smoothness of it. why is it so hard to find. i'm not asking for a full on relationship. just full on body contact. is that so much to ask. really.

i wish i were braver. i wish i could just go up to a man i am attracted to and kiss him and see where it goes. but its the damn feelings things again. what if he has a girlfriend or what if he's gay (that would be awkward, and some of the hot ones are gay) anyway i seem to be thinking far more of other people than myself.

my challenge for the next two weeks is to kiss a boy. just have to pick the right someone.

theres a tick next to my previous challenge...go to a party in a state of semi-dress, my swimsuit, and be ok with it. massive challenge, easy to achieve. once i got over people staring it was fine. then they got used to it and stopped staring and partied with me. simple.

the kiss challenge is something i've done before. it was fine. terrible kiss. but i'm thinking i need to go for someone with a little bit more experience in the kissing slash dating slash ravishing someone stakes.

a kiss is simple. what i want is a kiss that leads to some potential human contact down the line.