gaps. oh the gaps.

i miss my dad.

i have gaps. and i just want to be ok. to not feel so much loss and pain. i want to be able to look back at a year and cry over the happiness that graced that year. i don't want to look back over twenty-one years and mourn because all those years were sad.

i am grieving. for my dad. for the friendships lost. and for me. for all the things that i missed. for the gaps in my life and all the hurt thats happened.

i am grieving. and i miss my dad. and the person i used to be.